Ok, so one thing I've learned is that throughout these two years I will have my ups and downs. Emotions run high and never seem to stay constant. Some days I feel like I am on top of the world; like no one can bring me down. Other days I feel almost hopeless; discouraged and alone. However, on days like this one thing you must remember is that you are NEVER alone. Let me repeat myself... You. Are. Never. Alone. No matter how bad things get, or how lonely you feel... Just remember, the Lord is always with you. He will never leave you unless YOU choose to shut him out. I rely on my friends and family for support... But relying on the Savior is absolutely essential to make it through this crazy ride. There will be days when people come up to you and tell you that you won't make it... Tell you that it's hopeless and that you are a fool to wait around. It's discouraging, rude, and completely un-necessary! But listen, don't let those people or their hurtful words define you! Do NOT let those comments work their way into your thoughts... Because if you dwell on negative comments such as these, it will only tear you down. Focus on those who will build you up and act as a support group. There are several groups on facebook that you can request to be added into that have TONS of girls who are in the same situation who will be there to lift you up when you are struggling! These are the types of people to surround yourself with. These are the people who will become some of your best friends... Which brings up another subject... Friends.
You may find that some of your friends are not actually as good as you may have thought. I have gone through this experience and it's definitely a struggle! It's hard to watch those who you thought would support you fall away. It's hard to feel like you're losing some of the foundation that you had thought was so firm. It's hard to think that those people who said that they would be there for you, are not. But, even though it's upsetting and hard, just remember... When something doesn't work out it's just God's way of telling you that there is something better to come! :) I needed to know who my true friends were and this experience definitely helped me to figure it out... And although I had to distance myself from some of those "friends", at the same time I was growing closer to others. People who understood me, or even just tried to understand me. People who weren't judge-mental and who cared to be there for me, to listen to me, and to love me. These are the people who are worth spending your time with. These are the people to keep close on this two year journey. With these reliable friends, a loving family, and a merciful and loving Heavenly Father... I promise you. You will not fail.
So updates!!
Kevin was supposed to leave for the Lima, Peru MTC on the 18th of November, however his Visa didn't come in time so he will not be leaving until sometime early January. This means he will be spending Christmas in the MTC. He won't be able to call his family, but he will have an amazing and wonderful opportunity to listen to some general authorities speak and to meet them! I'm sure it will be an uplifting and inspiring experience that I can't wait to hear about! It's my third week and I have received three 6 page long letters! Yep, he sure is good at writing meaningful letters. :) In each letter he updates me on how he is doing, and also makes sure to remind me that he loves me! This is such a comfort, and it helps me get through those days that just seem impossible! It's like he knows just when I need to hear from him... :) His P-Day is on Monday so I always get my letters on Thursdays! It's such an awesome thing to look forward to, and they always bless and comfort me! Not to mention that it puts me on cloud 9! His letters never fail to make me smile and even cry! (Don't worry, they're happy tears:) Letters are still, and always will be, such a blessing. I plan on sending Kevin a letter soon that has my testimony written in it; both in spanish and english. I would love to share my testimony here as well.
"Sé que sin dudas de que mi Padre Celestial me ama. Yo sé que por medio su amor y el sacrificio de su Hijo Jesucristo, que puedo regresar a estar con él de nuevo algún día. Él me ha bendecidos con la don del Espíritu Santo, y yo sé que si seguimos las impresiones que me han dado por medio del Espíritu Santo que voy a crear una vida llena de alegría y amor. Sé que si me dedico a Cristo que nunca fallará. Él tiene un plan completo y perfecto hecho sólo para mí, y si voy a vivir de una manera que le permita dirigir mis caminos, entraré a encontrar la felicidad más allá de comparar. Yo sé que si yo confío en el Señor, él hará mis debilidades en fortalezas y él nunca me dejes caer. Yo sé que él me va a bendecir con talento y amor para compartir con sus hijos, muchos de los que están tratando de encontrar el Evangelio, y al gusto de su amor eterno. Me encanta este evangelio, y estoy muy agradecido por ello.
Soy un mormón, me encanta, lo vivo."
"I know without any doubts that my Heavenly Father loves me. I know that through his love and the sacrifice of His son Jesus Christ that I can return to be with him again someday. He has blessed me with the gift of the Holy Ghost, and I know that if I follow the promptings given to me through the Holy Ghost that I will create a life filled with joy and love. I know that if I devote myself to Christ that I will never fail. He has a complete and perfect plan made just for me, and if I will live in a way that will allow him to direct my paths, I will come to find happiness beyond compare. I know that if I rely on the Lord, he will make my weaknesses into strengths and he will never let me fall. I know that he will bless me with talents and love to share with his many children who are seeking to find the gospel, and to taste of his love eternal. I love this gospel, and I am so grateful for it.
I'm a mormon, I love it, I live it."
Be strong. :)
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